EDIT: I saw a doctor today, he said it may have been a rare kind of intense migraine, but also could have been related to a blood clot and I could have died, so I need to go in sooner next time, lol.
He also said I need to reduce stress by working fewer hours, exercising more, and sleeping more, and that I need to tackle my obesity by eating a lot better. I don't look obese but I am technically considered such, so I have to work hard on this in order to get the surgery I need as well.
I know I mentioned it already but I appreciate the patience on commissions, trades, or other obligations, I am working so much all the time that it's becoming a threat to my health, so I gotta slow down some. Thanks so much for those who have been so patient, and thank you to everyone who has sent so much help my way to help me to balance things. I am still looking for another job that pays more or to simply find a way to survive more cheaply so I might be able to do commission work full time! That's kind of a dream of mine at this point. I'm trying to somehow make time to animate again and learn clothing design and fursuit making as well.
I also likely will do very little to no personal work anymore, and no more trades, at least very very few. Everything will be commission based for quite some time and I won't be able to respond to messages nearly as often. I'm so sorry for not being able to provide much feedback for others, I love seeing your art and you're all really awesome friends, and I always appreciate your support so much. Thanks for sticking around through everything!
I've been having very strange stabbing head pain in one spot on the left side of my head for the past few days, causing blurry vision, slurred speech, numbness on the left side of my body, and pain in my throat and left ear. Not sure what it could be, but it's starting to improve a bit. I'll be calling a doctor today just to see if I should go in for anything.
It seems a lot of these issues are just related to very high levels of stress from working around the clock so constantly. I'm plowing through it best I can though, and considering some big changes if I need to.
Having a full time job that doesn't pertain to the field you wanted to work in, while juggling commissioned work in a field much closer to what you want to work in, while trying to maintain your health and enjoy life just ends up being a real mess. In a perfect world, I'd take the leap into just doing what I love, but it's too risky right now. I'm considering moving to a cheaper area to live, but I'd have to drop my current job altogether and find part time work while doing commissioned work that somehow pays enough. I also don't want to move too far from everything my roommate and I love, and I want him to be happy with wherever we end up too. I'm laid back about the area long as I'm close to a beach but I know that the convenience of having other places nearby is helpful too, and I really don't want to move THAT far from where we are.
I want to play a video game and go for walks and just kick back and be a happy little derp more often though, and I can't do that with the job I'm in and the current cost of living. Been wracking my brain on how to do that. :f